just wanted to express my thoughts

    hii, im kinda back lol (as if someone fucking reads this shit), but yeah idk a lotta things have happened in my life lately that i really wanted to express but don't know where then i remember this blog that i made so i guess here is fine. sooooo first of all Covid happened, i've actually had planned a ton of activities in 2020 but most of them got cancelled because of the pandemic i know it's sucks but we're gonna get through this thing in someway or another, before all of this you guys pretty much knew already that i got accepted to UNDIP (yeah big fucking news) i just really missed being there you know lol, hanging out with my friends doing stupid shit together, i mean dont get me wrong i fucking love being with my family. but i guess right now we gotta focus on the silver lining of this tragedy, i'm glad that i have a shit ton of time to reflect my decisions throughout my whole life, and when i think about it i actually did some pretty fucked up stuff. some i can't mentioned but i just want everybody to know that i'm sorry, nobody is perfect and so do i but that doesn't justify my actions towards you that i hurt physically of mentally, i am truly sorry.

    hopefully i can learn from my lesson and move on to be a better individual, now when i really got my mind into these stuff i usually got pretty fucking sad lmao what a fucking beta right, but thankfully i got friends that i could really rely on. lmao i'm sorry this post turned into an apology kinda thing. alrite moving on

being in quarantine really makes you have to turned you head around finding something that gets you out of boredom but because i'm a not productive type of  person so youtube basically does it for me lollll literally everyday either i fucking game the fuck outta that day or i watched youtube videos. and luckily a few days back The Last Of Us Part II came out i thought this would be my new favorite fucking game to play, but boy was i so fucking wrong, i got a chance to play a little bit of this game (because i don't want to continue after the massacre of my boi joel). i am really pissed of the story, it irritates me that Ellie (the MC) had some shit revenge plot ever fucking written, and Joel's death is executed very poorly, for those of you who don't know joel is basically ellie's guardian in the first game joel lost his daughter because of the virus that going on in that world, and then he met ellie that is immune to that virus and could potentially be the cure for mankind, but the only doctor that could make the vaccine lives in the other part of town and joel  has to get ellie to that doctor, the relationship of ellie and joel starts here and through it all the bond gets pretty strong with these two, but there's a twist, the twist is ellie has to die to make the vaccine, and joel ain't letting it happen again.

    the world took something from joel back then when he lost his daughter, now joel took something from the world at least that's how i see it. it's good story telling, compared to the second one as far as the gameplay i fucking love it, the expressions of each characters are spot on, the combat is magnificent, the scenery is gorgeous, but THE FUCKING STORY?? nuh uh not for me, it's basically some generic revenge plot out there, the ghost from joel's past now hunts him and kills him, and now ellie wants to kill the one that kills joel, its fucking basic right i mean you could even find this plot in an anime Fullmetal Alchemist ffs. the thing that really grinds my gear is ellie killed a bunch of people except the one that killed joel, wtf is that, it can't be all for nothing right? or can it?? i don't fucking know anymore dude this gets me even more depressed than before lol, now this post turned into a rant about TLOU 2 lmao. i've passed the 3 stages of grief, now i just have to wait for the last stage to hit me, wish me luck. that's it i guess, i hope  y'all are staying safe out there, just know that we'll get through this, peace out.